The luxury of boredom.

Last spring I had the opportunity to go to Joshua Tree and it was phenomenal. I highly recommend it. The desert is a welcome change of scenery, especially when coming from the puget sound.

I find my mind wandering back to that trip often. There was something incredibly serene about being in the middle of nowhere. I crave that feeling of having nothing to do except walk around and look at the rocks and trees.

Last year I graduated college and in the time since I have felt my freedom slip away. Before I would have a Summer as an open canvas to scheme up trips, parties, and other shenanigans. Sure, I had to work some shifts slinging polos and khakis at Nordstrom but it was easy to get time off.

Now that I have a “nine to five” which is actually more like a nice to 5:30 (because apparently the lunch break is unpaid) I feel restricted. The flexibility of being a student has been replaced with the burden of being an adult. It’s hard to even make time to dream.

I think back to Joshua Tree, when I was optimistic. I could lie in the sun and daydream of how my life would turn out. What I would do post graduation. Now I think about if I will have enough energy to go run errands after work. If I will be able to afford a gym membership and developing photos.

The world used to seem so open. I used to be bored. I used to draw, and write, and read. But lately I’ve just been exhausted.

Post No. 1

This is my attempt at finally starting a blog of some sort. I have started websites, zines, etc. before but this is the first earnest attempt to start something that I will stick with.

It has always been my goal to be writer, but I lacked follow through. I would furiously jot down ideas, essays, and ramblings in a notebook and text files only to discard them. I hated (and still do) reading what I write, proof-reading is excruciating for me. That feeling of insecurity still haunts me, but if I begin to make this a routine I am sure I can overcome those thoughts.

I’m not sure what I have to say yet. I hope it will be something substantial. If not this is still a good exercise for the therapeutic nature. I’m not sure if adding my voice to the already oversaturated internet culture will result in anything. But I’m sure as I work through this process I will find a certain niche or untapped area.

Anyways, thank you for reading and I hope you will continue to read as I figure out what the hell I am doing here.